You do not have to be good. You do not have to walk on your knees. For a hundred miles through the desert, repenting. You only have to let the soft animal of your body love what it loves.

 

Mary Oliver

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As I transitioned into adolescence, however, I began to abide to the common story of separation, the pressure to conform was so strong and suddenly the magic appeared to be lost. All was silenced. I spent many of my growing up years drowning, feeling completely disoriented, numb and desensitized. Somewhere within me there was a remembering, I knew that what I had felt and experienced through the innocent gaze of being a child was not far away and yet I kept falling into forgetfulness.

 

Suffering was my soul's initiation - as for many of us - a doorway into the important questions. I started to ask what was it that I planned to do:

 

 

" with [my] one wild and precious life? "

 

 

As I would later hear poet Mary Oliver say. 

 

As I navigated the messiness of being alive I realized that the story of this one linear journey we are all doomed to be set upon was a fraud one. There were no final destinations, no shores to grip onto. My life rather appeared as a symphony of experiences that kept spiraling me towards the epicenter of my being, this mysterious self at the core of everyone. 

During the many years of study and research I encountered a wide range of practices, from Embodiment to Yoga, to Dance and Trauma work, I deepened my knowledge  of Buddhist traditions, Yoga traditions, Tantrik practices and rituals, Indigenous ways of Knowing, Deep Ecology, Permaculture, Herbalism, Dream Work, Creative Expression and much more. I have always been guided by this deep desire to know and in knowing forgetting, to encounter life with intimacy and presence. I have always cultivated a wild desire to be of service to the transformation and expansion of our potentialities not only as human beings but as beings part of a much vaster and an intricate web of life. 

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What guides most of my work that includes retreats, workshops, birthwork & 1:1 sessions is the question: “how can we re-enchant ourselves to the world around and within us, returning to our feral capacity to sit with what is yet do be known, encountering life in its immediacy?”. To learn how to return over and over again to the wild territories of our souls without trying to escape from the sticky and shadowy parts of our inner landscapes but actually welcome them as teachers and doorways of initiation. And, contemporarily, how can we honor the uniqueness of our own song and yet, at the same time, realize that we are all entangled in the same woven fabric of existence. 

 

It is my deepest desire for all of us to deepen our relationship with all things,

to return to the endless conversations that are available to us at all moments so that we may emerge out of the mutilating silence of separation and alienation that so many of us experience in our modern world. As I weave all of these threads I am devoted to being in service of liberation and love. I offer spaces of remembering, of returning, of dropping in ordinary spirituality and work as a midwife for supporting the birth of our truest essence into the world.

I consider myself a devotee of the elements, of plants, of the natural world and a bridge of healing for our bodies, hearts and spirits. I am interested in returning to our humanity and remembering how to walk in harmony again here on Earth. How to learn from our failures, how to deeply nourish ourselves, how to listen to the voices of our souls and it's wild longings and how to be of service again to the world in our unique way.  

In some ways I have alway been devoted to soul work by which I mean work that acknowledges the mysterious, the unseen, the silent gaps in between destinations, but that is also deeply rooted in the ordinariness of being alive. Soul is not something to be found in the exceptional, but in the simplicity of the present moment.

 

Already as a child I had a strong connection to my inner world and my desire to know the fabric of reality particularly alive. I would spend hours in communication with the the more than human realm, with plants, with my imagination, creating stories, dances, poems and being in an intimate relationship with all things. I have always been interested in those liminal spaces where things meet, where me and what is other than me can interact, spaces of contact where I can find myself anew and go beyond the boundaries of my small self.